A lighthouse

Ever feel like you need a lighthouse to guide you back to yourself? The new self that is out there, the one that you know exists, the better version of yourself.

Lately, I’m feeling like I need a lighthouse to guide me back to someone and that someone is the new me that I want to be, the one I know can exist because all it takes is for me to make different choices.

The new me that has different goals, different plans, different feelings and way better different outcomes. I have been thinking about this for sometime, and after watching “Look both ways” on Netflix , I figured why not, chart a new course.

I’ve chartered a course to a new me. Sometimes the sea of emotions are a bit rough, sometimes I feel like I’m being swallowed up by the expansiveness of my potential to me great, afraid of the magic I feel growing inside. Not knowing if I have the capacity to release it to the world and still be able to control it. I’ve been keeping the greatest parts of me hidden, because I’m not sure. Part of it is because I’m a bit afraid of what people may say, or accept me.

Sometimes I just want to turn back, but I know since coming this far, I would never be who I was. Hiding my light so other don’t feel like I’m outshining them, or me thinking I’m better than them. It has been such a waste of time, not living up to my potential.

So if you feel like I’m acting differently, I’m not acting. I’m just on my way to being the best version of myself for the rest of my life. Either everyone is with me, if you are no with me, know that my new self is not against you I’m just showing up for me.